Saturday, November 10, 2007

my upcoming empty christmas

As I was about to enter the house at 6pm, I felt the cool breeze of December air. I said to myself, OMG Christmas is coming, and I’m not even happy. In fact, I am lonely. It is very hard to think of great things when I’m stuck with an unsolved dilemma! *sighs* Normally, I would enjoy the feeling of Christmas time from October-November but December isn’t really a happy-time. Too much celebration makes me sick! I love the preparation for Christmas, and only the preparation itself. I even get excited when I hear Christmas songs being played in department stores as early as October. Having Christmas break also gives me the reason to smile, and that’s about it.It is also the time when I get to see people whom I rarely see, people who are close to my heart but unfortunately not available in other times of the year. It is weird but I always get the feeling of loneliness when it’s Christmas day already. I know it’s not all about gift-giving and Christmas parties which usually makes people, especially children, blissful. It’s more on the meaning of this celebration that makes sense.

4 comments:

Katia said...

I don't get it. Why do you feel lonely during Christmas then?

winky said...

totally agree girl...
That's why some call it
Christmas Blues...
I felt that last year...
It was like.."yeah it's Christmas, Happy Birthday Jesus" that's it.

sometimes mellow Christmas songs make me cry you know...aaw drama

Abigail said...

i don't know. that's why i feel weird. i know i have so many reasons to be jolly but the its such an irony.

Abigail said...

"sometimes mellow Christmas songs make me cry you know...aaw drama"

i felt this too! but i'm not much into crying so i normally just feel sad and makes me feel depressed even more