Saturday, December 8, 2007

Straight ahead, instead of turning back

Whew no updates for a long time! I’ve been quite confused the last time I posted something. My life changed dramatically! I maybe wanted to settle things up before posting anything here. Well, the change that I’m saying is quite confidential and I cannot tell you the story maybe that’s why I wasn’t able to say anything. All I know now is that I am already happy, or sort of. I may not feel what I was experiencing before, but this is a change. I may not say that this is better; all I know is that this is something different. You may wonder what am I saying but I just can’t say it here. I have just moved on. I just felt how college life really means. It is sad. I sometimes still think of the past, I think of it that I was happier back then. But I also realized that sometimes I am happier now. I just haven’t adjusted a hundred percent, only eighty percent I guess.

Here are some of the changes that are not really of being in college, but jut changes in me. We speak English in class, most of the time, and it is getting contagious that everyone in the classroom follows it. I am now disorganized. I don’t plan. I don’t expect. I don’t think of what will happen next (although sometimes I still do). I don’t worry too much on things anymore. I’ve really learnt how to be a happy-go-lucky person. Life is short, and I’m regretting every minute that I’ve wasted.

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