mixed week

I’m currently having an unbalanced week. Sometimes, I have too much time and got nothing to do. Often, I’ve got many things to do in so little time. My schedule is really crazy. We still have election and induction for GB and I feel bad about it. Having said that I’ll quit didn’t minimize my burden. I actually have the same load. I already said that I’ll quit being an officer last week and they persuaded me not to. Dadi Michael said that I don’t have to do many things for the preparation for the last activity. He is just asking me to be there, for the sake of the group. So I agreed. I will be a ghost member for the last week of our org.

FYI, this organization is called GreenBees Society, existing for the sake of Freshmen College of Business and Accountancy. Since I’m already a sophie, all we need to do is guide the “new” set of officers and leave, forever. But before that happens, we have to do so many things. But I say it sucks, making me wait 30min-1hr every time we meet. I partly regret being an officer in the org, who doesn’t? From the very first sessions, I already lost interest because of punctuality and attendance problem. I really wasn’t enjoying. It was on the latter part that I just decided to tolerate my suffering because the org will last for about a month or so.

But last week, I broke, I said I’d quit. And they said not to. So I am doing what they said. Just have my name on the list but I do not have to be there all the time. As a matter of fact, we have our election later and I won’t attend. It is my 1^st time to be absent, with no valid excuse. I just WANT to be ABSENT. That’s all. I only have class until 1030 but we had a meeting at 12-130 so I waited. Then I don’t have a class afterwards so I don’t like to wait for another 3 hrs because the election will be at 430.. I am sick and tired! If you are concerned with what I am saying here, don’t judge me, because I am just saying my opinion and my feelings. You don’t have to criticize my opinion, ok? I am just so tired!

Well, last Saturday, I just figured that my cabinet was too crowded. So I decided to clean it up. Here! I took a picture of my effort. hehe

life is short

Eighteen years of existence and I felt the urge to say something about it. I know this is kinda late, but I have planned to summarize the significant happenings in my life, I just didn’t have time. I really don’t want to reach the legal age since I am happy being young. But I believe that nothing is permanent, even life. I am so down every time I think about my past, not that it was sad or what. I just want to cry, others call it tears of joy. I think it is essential to grow old, but it is a choice to be old.

I’ve said this many times already but I want to say it again. I feel so blessed of my life that I can’t think of anything more to ask. I know I wasn’t perfect, nor I was angelic to be so blessed by things that others have been asking to have as their own. I know that my family has been a great factor of this life. My friends are part of my well-being. I wasn’t even a perfect friend, although I tried to be good. But still, here they are, they remained the strongest. I chose many to be my close friends, but several also left me. Maybe I had something to do with it, I don’t know. All I know is that I love what I have now, they are the best. They understood my hardships and accepted me for who I am. I am sorry if I had mistakes in that past. I wasn’t that experienced in handling situations.

My mentors molded me for who I am today. I want to thank them for being harsh on me sometimes because those made me stronger. My high school life was the greatest. I won’t trade anything for it. It taught me everything I need to know to become who I am. I don’t know why I get this feeling every time I think of my high school life. It placed a scar in my heart. I can’t say specific situations that are significant. Well for me, everything is.

I have met numerous people through my travels, specifically in Taiwan. I have met true friends two years ago in my 6 weeks tour, but now we are not that connected. I know someday, this will also happen to my 3 weeks tourmates, but I really hope not. It is hard for us keep in touch. Yes, there is technology, but it feels incomplete. I still am sad of the fact that we are not lucky enough to be with you guys when you meet because we are here in the province. I consider of it as a disadvantage, but I think that is reality. I just have to accept that after many years, or even months, the YM conference that we have every night, will fade. Although I can’t do anything about it, I can’t stop reality, nor can’t I bring back time, I just want you to know that it was one of the best parts of my life.

I living a happy life seem too fast, too fast that I didn’t even notice that I am already an adult. Life is short. Live it to the fullest!

i have posted several pictures of my childhood. just visit my multiply site

busyme

I just can't update now. Although I have somethings to say. I am too busy. Maybe I'll try to catch up this weekend. Sorry for not updating.

7th

TO ALL WHO GREETED ME, THANK YOU!

June 6th

OMG, this is actually the last day that I can proudly say, “hey I’m just seventeen!”. I just can’t believe it. And I just can’t take it. I really don’t want to get older. I just love being young! I am still not stable in many things. I am not enrolled yet. Blaahhhh! I just can’t understand so many things. I hope I can handle those in a click. I just want to say something, before I actually turn legal. I hate it!